The isolation of Christianity…

My coworkers, most family, and people who don’t know me intimately might be surprised to find that I struggle greatly with the Christian faith. I am not drawn to something else as much as it is a questioning of the worldview that forms our belief structure. I don’t always struggle with my faith, but here is some of what I wrestle with on a continual basis (normally throughout the day randomly, but especially at bedtime when trying to get to sleep). Keep in mind, I know the answers that we give for these within Christian circles and when debating nonbelievers. I am not looking for these answers. My point is that the answers don’t satisfy me fully and they leave me wondering if I am not missing something.

1. The holy trinity aspect. Is there one God or multiple gods? Are we going to be like God one day in terms of our eternal development? How can there be three distinct persons but one God? Is God a spirit (whatever that means, quantum physics? Another dimension?) or a physical being? Or all these?

2. The Old Testament tends to read like current science fiction when God shows up. Fire comes down and consumes people, altars, and sacrifices. Pillar of fire by night, cloud of smoke during the day. Separating the waters and walking through on dry land. Taking Elijah up into heaven on a chariot of fire. Staffs that turn into snakes. The plagues in Egypt. Control over nature. What am I supposed to do with all this when it is more easily explained using ancient alien theories than a supernatural God theory?

3. What about the ark of the covenant? Those two cherub wing tips reaching out to each other are where the voice of God would come from. This is explicit in the Old Testament. People died if they touched it and weren’t authorized. Cities/towns were plagued when it was captured. This thing is no joke. What was so awesome about the ark? Why did God use it to wreck havok and communicate with Israel?

4. What about the genocide that was sanctioned by God against entire towns and people groups? How do I reconcile that God with the lovey dubby God that is fed to us at church, through contemporary music, feel good Christian self help books, etc? Either God doesn’t change or He does. Christians can’t have it both ways. If He doesn’t change then the message today is not in line with the God of the Old Testament. If He does change then ‘say what’? Lucy, you gots some splaining to do.

These are just the tip of the iceberg. I wonder about a random listener who called in to one of the radio programs on Moody Bible Institutes station. She was a professor of anthropology or something like that. They were asking for listeners to call in who were not believers. She was so secure in her belief and comfortable with the knowledge she had. She finds listening to religious programming fascinating and helpful in her studies. I envy her.

I just don’t want to be the blind leading the blind. And yet, the alternative simply doesn’t make sense. There is no other worldview that I have looked at which makes better sense of the state of mankind as I observe it. But I feel like I am constantly missing the forrest for the tree.

Am I alone?


10 thoughts on “The isolation of Christianity…

  1. You’re definitely not alone. I was just thinking about the alien thing today. I was contemplating how this isn’t our home. We say we’re just passing through. So are we inhabiting these bodies because our true forms are spiritual? Were we somewhere else first and then born here? When we get to heaven, will we know all the answers about everything? If heaven and earth intersect, which is why we pray for things on earth to be as they are in heaven, then is heaven in a dimension intertwined with ours?

    That’s just a sample of questions I have. It doesn’t mean I don’t believe. It just means my God is bigger than the box we try to put him in.


  2. Melisa Wadley

    I so understand what both of you are saying. I think we make things up to fit our needs as a people. (using the BIble)
    vengeful or loving, burning bush, flood. or preach to all, love, turn other cheek.
    Some of the worst hurts I have had were by people of the “church”.
    I think GOD is bigger than we make it. I still question if one or do we just go away. but my mine doesn’t let me handle that. My raising, my inner faith, the world or creation my joys? Don’t get down, just know we affect others and can left others up. That is what I try to do. No matter what fair you have or don’t have. Love you all.


    1. I edited your response grammatically. I think you did speech to text. Let me know if it reads correctly still. I agree to an extent. We are better off pursuing loving others as we want to be loved. Thanks, mom


  3. Of course you know where I landed on all those questions and more. I could send you a ton of material that is relative, but I don’t want you to think I am trying to influence you. Just let your mind go where the most probable answer is, with the same level of critical thinking you would give any other religion out there. I reached a point where I told myself, “Just because I don’t like the answers I get it doesn’t change the truth”. Thank you, Bob Wadley662-321-8250bob@bobwadley.com 


  4. Tommy (Sandra) Monts

    Keith, we Believers are not to question the Bible. Sometimes we try to explain things to satisfy our thoughts. God gave us His Word to read, study, and know He was, is, and will always be. Our faith in God and trust in Him must not be diminished. God lets us know to question God, but not to doubt Who He is, was, and shall ever be. I do not think this deeply as you and others
    . I believe in God, the Father Almighty, maker of Heaven and earth, and in Jesus Christ, His only Son, our lord. Who was born of the Virgin Mary, suffered under Pontius Pilat, was crucified, dead and buried. The third day He arose, He ascended into Heaven and sitteth at the right hand of God, the Father Almightyfrom whence He shall the living and the dead I believe in the holy catholic church, the forgiveness of sins, the resurrection of the body , and life everlasting. (holy catholic all Christian churches)

    I believe the Bible, God is Father, Son, and Holy Spirit.
    I know I’ll see Him in heaven, and that is what’s most important to me.
    Instead of figuring out all questions I might have, I’ll spend time ministering to others and hopefully share the Good News of Jesus Christ

    I love you, grandson, and hope you find peace that only He can give


    1. I hear what you are saying, Granny. Thanks for taking the time to respond. These are the questions that theologians have wrestled with for centuries. That is why we have the Nicene Creed for instance. That is why Paul wrote Romans. It is a part of the faith. God can handle my questioning. Can I handle it? Ha! Time will tell. Maybe my smack down is coming like what Job experienced.


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