The point to my blog is supposedly “to encourage, inspire, inform, challenge and bring hope to others as I express my worldview and life perceptions.” I believe I have been doing at least two of those listed: informing and challenging. But I could be wrong and I have not scoured through my previous posts to verify what I am saying.
As I sit on my couch tonight after watching a show on Netflix, I was casually falling to sleep when I realized that if I died in my sleep, my kids, friends, wife, family, etc… would eventually be curious what the last thing going through my head was. They would watch the movie “Headhunters“, a foreign film, and probably be blown away that I would watch something like that. It would not match with the character that I display to people. And it is not how I want to be remembered. I see this as a “wake-up” call of sorts.
I don’t know how long I can follow this calling, but it needs to be followed and should be followed by everyone. Live every moment as though it is your last. What is your legacy? What memories are forming for those you love to hold onto once you die? How are you making the world a better place than you left it?
That is what matters. Not some fantasy about an art thief in a corporate struggle with a pyscho-path ex-Special Operations military guy who is trying to get his company out of debt by securing the new CEO position with another company and in the process tries to ruin and kill another man. That is just lame.
I am ashamed to call myself a Christian. I watch these things and feel nothing. I am numb to blood, Hollywood violence, swearing, and various other immoralities that I hope my children never witness or grow numb to. In the past couple of weeks I have escaped through shows like Numbers, Lie to Me, Gladiator, and now Headhunters. I have not lived as though I am dying. I have lived as though I don’t want to be here in the life that I have been blessed with. That is disgraceful, dishonoring, shameful, and unholy.
The apostle Paul wrote of our time here on earth and how it should be lived. He compares the Christian lifestyle with that of runners in a race who are all aiming to get the prize at the end of the race. He writes, “Therefore I do not run like one who runs aimlessly or box like one beating the air. Instead, I discipline my body and bring it under strict control, so that after preaching to others, I myself will not be disqualified.” 1 Corinthians 9:26-27
And the apostle Peter says of our pursuit of holiness, ” Therefore, with your minds ready for action, be serious and set your hope completely on the grace to be brought to you at the revelation of Jesus Christ. As obedient children, do not be conformed to the desires of your former ignorance. But as the One who called you is holy, you also are to be holy in all your conduct; for it is written, Be holy, because I am holy.” 1 Peter 1:13-16
I need to start living like I am dying, and take seriously the commands to love God with all that I am by firstly obeying what He commands of me. And to obey Him, is to know Him. To know Him is to love Him. And to love Him is all that He desires of me.