I don’t know about the rest of you out there but praying to me is equivalent to when my mom used to tell me, “Go clean your room!”. It simply does not come naturally to me. I completely understand the importance of prayer in all its many splendid forms but that does not make it any easier.
I pray when things are good and when things are bad. It is funny how we have “Catch 22” sayings regarding these two situations in life for prayer. I hear preachers say, “Anyone can pray when things are going well.” Then they also say, “We all want the Lord to intervene when things are going badly.” Well why shouldn’t you pray during either situation? That is not their point. Their point is that some people don’t pray until one situation or the other. So I no longer take it to heart when I hear them throw the catch 22 out there. As with most things in life, if the comment doesn’t apply to me then I try to not take it personally.
Now for me the problem is complicated and yet simple. I have been taught how to pray out loud in a group, out loud by myself, quietly to myself in a group or by myself (one of the most difficult), how to pray out loud while others are praying, how to use scripture while praying to guide my prayers, how to order my prayers (praise, confession, petition, intercession, meditation: mainly based on The Lord’s Prayer model), how to pray with whatever is on my mind or heart, how to pray quickly when your car is about to run into something that it shouldn’t, how to pray at sporting events, and the list goes on.
So I should be able to pray at any random moment, right?
Well why can’t I pray first thing in the morning or even in the middle of the day when I allot the time to pray? I can pray small prayers throughout the day but when it comes to devotion type of prayers where I actually give God the time to speak to me and search my heart then I cannot do it. My attention span is nil. What am I doing wrong? How do you get the motivation to pray? If anyone has the answer(s) then please chime in. Is it my lack of faith? Is it that God wants me to be doing something else besides praying? Is it my brain thinking that I am crazy for even believing in God and wondering why I should want to talk to thin air? I need you guys to help me work through this.