How do people do it? How do we get up each morning (or whenever you wake up from slumber) and put our two feet on the floor to get to work, school, daycare, etc…? I have been so depressed this past week with the mundaneness of my work. For me it is not so much the job itself as it is the lack of leadership within the organization. I thrive on goals, incentives, and affirmation of a job well done. I do not have that where I currently work. Sure, I set my own goals but even if I achieve them then the only person that says anything to me is myself. That is frustrating. I read somewhere that every person alive needs affirmation.
I think it is how we are made. But I really don’t know the why as much as I know the “I need it” part.
You might ask me, “then, Boris, why keep working at the same job?” Well, I am trying to find other employment but I am also trying to make changes at work. The other reason to keep working is that I have bills to pay each month. If I don’t work then who will look after my wife and my little girl (she is not here yet but within the next few weeks she will be). But even with needing to pay the bills there are days where it is tempting to simply quit my current employment and forge ahead on my own into whatever other job will have me. For those of you who know me, that seems to be the way I do business. I have had 13 jobs in the past 3.4 years. Try that for a record that not many will try to break on purpose. I have hated every last one of the jobs that I have had, well, except one (there was this one-time job that I did for a lady who needed a sign designed and painted, so I did that, it was really cool but didn’t turn out like it should have).
Anyways, I am just kind of venting today. I take the Praxis I tests tomorrow for the first step in trying to become a teacher. I do not know if that is what I will enjoy doing either, but if nothing else it gives me a lot of time off to pursue other lines of work. It is going to be quite tough to get into teaching though, from the looks of it,so I am hoping that it is something I fall in love with doing. I think it will, but I truly do not know. I mean, when was the last time you talked to a teacher who actually enjoyed teaching these days? The kids are horrible and they do not know the meaning of respect, honor, integrity, and obedience. God forbid you lay a finger on them either. You will get the school system sued and you fired faster than you can find your television remote and turn your tv on to see it on the evening news!
I gotta go.
Boris the Illusionist